Stuck In Neutral

Sometimes I find myself going through life stuck in neutral! Meaning, nothing exciting has happened, I haven't met anyone new, life is just "normal". Most of the time normal is considered great but other times its easy to get stuck in the routine of normal- easy to get caught up in the routine you have every day or week and not make time for new and exciting things that you will remember when you're older!

One of my biggest goals for senior year was to be able to make memories with my friends that I would be able to remember for a life time. I wanted to be able to look back in twenty years and be able to tell my kids all of the amazing things I had done during high school. I am so happy to say that I most definitely have those memories that I wanted to badly. I found that for some of high school I was going with the flow and stuck in neutral, so, I decided to change the way I was doing things and go out of my way to try and make memories that I could never forget.

I found that in order to have the opportunities to create memories you have to take the initiative to plan the things you want to happen. If you don't take initiative then things will never happen the way you want them to. If you find yourself stuck in a rut, make plans with friends in order to get out of that place you're in, you will be so much happier because of it!

It took me many years and many tears to realize that things don't just happen for people; you have to put in the effort and time in order to make your life fun and exciting! Trust me, it will definitely be worth it!

Relationships and Nail Polish

Most people would agree with the idea that friendship is a two way street. Equal amounts of give and take. Although some of my friends certainly are this way there are without a doubt some that are not equal in their amount of give and take. I definitely still love these people and cherish the relationships but some times it becomes too much to handle so I have to take a little break from the relationship, which breaks my heart but I know we will be closer because of it.

This is going to sound like a random question but I promise it will make sense in one second. Have you ever painted your nails and one hand always comes out better than the other? (If you're a righty, chances are your left hand comes out better and vice versa for all of the lefty's out there). This is how I view some of my friendships. Me, being the right hand doing the decent painting, is able to take the time and make the nails on the left hand look beautiful and clean. Meanwhile, the left hand looks beautiful and all it is able to do in return for the right hand is get paint all over the fingers and just make a complete mess. The right hand puts in the effort to make the left hand look beautiful, but the left hand isn't able to return the favor.

I know that might sound crazy but that is the best description I could use to possibly explain how these certain relationships work. I feel like I'm constantly putting in so much effort and getting close to nothing in return, and it can get to you after a while. Don't get me wrong, I love doing things for people and making them happy, it's one of my favorite things! It's just frustrating getting nothing in return.

Any advice on friendships or relationships in general? I'm open for some insight!